March 3rd, 2009

Ed reading - kanji

More than two months now

Two cycles now with no major PMS. I am liking this trend. Plus, I've just in general been in a much better mood lately. I don't know how much this has been reflected in my posts, because I tend to 1)not post much in general, and 2)not post a whole lot about what's bothering me (I feel like I emo a lot, but honestly, I barely post a fraction of my bad moods), but on this end, it's been a big change. I haven't fallen into a depression in months. I've gotten upset, hurt, angry, frustrated and annoyed, even worked up a mild panic, but did not get depressed. It's been close a few times, but I've been able to pull myself out of it. I was never able to do that before.

Not to sound like an infomercial, but I can attribute most of this to the book, From Belly Fat to Belly Flat. Despite the title this is not the fad diet that has been going around. Nothing about MUFAs or "follow one rule" or any crap like that. This book is about hormonal balance; losing belly fat is just sort of a side effect (estrogen dominance leads to the body storing fat around the middle). I'm not following everything strictly, but even so, it's made a huge difference. This is the longest stretch of time that I haven't felt depressed in ... honestly, I don't know how long. Probably at least since middle school. So most of my life, in other words. Mom's assessment was that I seemed to be enjoying life more in general, and I think that's true.

Anyway, I wanted to update you all, because I know I've worried people in the past with the emo'ing (hell, I worried myself). Of course, my various issues aren't gone, but they don't whack me over the head and bury me 6' deep anymore. Things are a lot easier to deal with when that doesn't happen.